Wednesday, September 5, 2012

If You Really Knew Me

Now before you read this post I would like you to watch the entire video. Late one night, I saw this video and my heart broke. But I kept watching knowing that at the end she would hold up a card that said, "God changed me. He healed my brokeness." I waited and waited at the edge of my seat for the card... but it never came. Never. I couldn't believe that Cassie thought she would have to go her entire life broken, a mess, complicated, misunderstood etc. She said, she would just have to get used to it. In her mind, that's where her story ended.

But Cassie isn't some make believe girl on the Internet. She lives across the street from you. She's two seats behind you in math class. She bags your groceries. Do you not see her pain? Can't you see past the plastic masks she holds up? Cassies all around the world are crying out for help! You can help them. You have the hope that they are looking for. You have Jesus. That is the only thing that can save them. You and me hold the key to Life. So please, please! I am pleading with you to no longer sit in your computer chairs while the world is dying! You are the Change, the Hope and Life. Find a way to show others Life through Christ. Stand up for those who are being bullied. Become friends with the outcasts. Raise awareness about people like Cassie. Pray for the Cassies.

But maybe as you are sitting in your computer chair you think, "but I am Cassie...." You are not alone. I have a past, I used to be a Cassie. I used to Cut. I couldn't handle my life, so I Cut. The pain inside of me overflowed to the outside in the form of Cutting.  It was the only way I thought I could release the pain. I tried to stop, but it just seemed impossible. I was suddenly entrapped in a vicious cycle I couldn't get out of.  I found myself going back to it again and again.  Then someone cared enough to come clean with me about the path I was headed down.  So I finally stopped, but the hurt inside didn't. I would cry myself to sleep. I used to scream at night, wanting so badly to get a scissors in my hand. Then in the midst of my brokeness Jesus entered in. There is Life and Hope in Jesus Christ. I was so afraid I would be lost in that world forever. But He saved me.
Please contact me: we have a page called Lean on Me. You can post there and I can give you my help and prayers. Remember: "I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair; out of the mud and mire. He set my feet on solid ground, and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord." Psalm 40:1-3.


  1. This is such a good post, Anna.

    I really started choking up on the video. It is so sad that people go through this all the time. I feel exactly how she feels. I went through a depression awhile ago. Jesus helped me out of it!!! Soemtimes I still feel myself slipping back into the depression. If you could keep me in your prayers that would be deeply appreciated.

    <3 Hadassah

    1. I will definitely keep you in my prayers. I feel terrible that you are going through this. If there is any other ways that I can help let me know.