I was talking to God one evening and he revealed to me something really amazing. I have just finished writing my second book, and I was drawing my character for the illustrations. I loved all of my characters and the way they looked. Now my sketches of my characters are not perfect, on purpose. I did not sketch a bunch of beautiful perfect people, but they each are very special in their own way.
Anyways, I was talking to God that night and He said something that really made me think. He said, "Anna, what would you do if Jen (one of my characters from my book), came up to you and asked why you didn't make her more beautiful like Brielle?" I was sorta stunned. "Well, I would tell her that I created her that way because it fit who she was. I mean, I made her with poofy brown hair, and clever green eyes, because that's who she is." Then He said, "Yes, but she isn't as pretty as Brielle or as sweet as Brie." I answered, "Well of course not! She wasn't meant to be sweet and pretty. In my book Jen is supposed to be outgoing and wild, so I wouldn't make her look any different than I already did." Still God persisted, "Okay, but what if Jen started crying and begged you, her creator, why you made her with only one arm and why you had made her with such plain hair?" I suddenly realized where God was getting at, "I made her with only one arm because I wanted my readers to always remember how unique Jen was and how she was different from all my other characters. Plus I knew Jen would come up with cool styles to put her hair in, so I wasn't afraid of making her hair brown and kinda frizzy." Then God responded, "I did the same for you, Anna. I had a special plan and purpose for your life and I made you exactly the way you are because if you looked like anybody else it wouldn't have fit the plan I have for your life. I think you are beautiful in your own special way."
That discussion with God totally changed the way I looked at myself and others. I finally was able to accept who I am and not try to turn myself into somebody else. I also hope this post will encourage you and help you to see yourself in a new way.